I won't lie, I am not even a little sad to see 2011 go. It was just kind of an awful year. Lots of anxiety and stress. Just lame. The only really good thing to come from this year was Alex. And, he is pretty great. My goal this year is to be more positive, across the board. For me, it is a little easy to get bogged down in crap. I've been doing a little art journenling and I thought in honor of the new year I would dedicate a page to good stuff in my life right now.
In to trying to do some positive thinking, I also decided to actually make some resolutions. I love resolutions! I do. I like writing down goals. I like to revisit them through out the year and see if I am meeting them. Last year, because of pregnancy I didn't really tackle this endeavor (starting the year with an injury is always a bad sign). Since last year was the crappiest year ever I decided I was going to revisit my practice of resolution making. I think I am just the kind of person that likes intentionality and resolutions help me be intentional. Here is my list . . .
My list is pretty straight forward. Most of the stuff I wrote down isn't really measurable. Which, for me takes the pressure off. The only one that might need explaining is the one about getting Alex moving. We finally got him with a pediatric physical therapist and he has some muscle tone deficiency. He should be fine with therapy but he will be a really late walker. And, he might not be overly athletic. The good news is he will walk. We have a great therapist and a good plan in place. I just can't help but feel hopeful. The year started with some good changes and I have to think it will be better. I will say that I grew up a lot in 2011. I learned a lot about myself. I am stronger than I thought I am. I'm going to take all that strength and channel it into making 2012 amazing. I hope it can be!
PS. We had a lovely New Year's Day dinner with some good friends (hi Cassie and Sherry). It was so yummy. They even made Alex his first place card. I couldn't think of a better way to start the year or better people to start it with.