I love New Year's, it is a new beginning. It is refreshing, like clean white sheets. I am always reflective this time of year. I spend a lot of time thinking about our lives and what we accomplished the previous year. For us it has seemed that each of the past few years have had a theme. 2006 was the year from hell, I am not exaggerating. It was the year that my mom was diagnosed with brain cancer and we moved to Florida to help take care of her. If dealing with finding out your mom (the only parent you have ever had) has terminal cancer wasn’t enough Jason's parents both had surgery and we both ended up in the ER. Not only did we have to go to the ER but we went without insurance which is very expensive and scary. 2007 was the year of loss. My mother died in June. My mom and I were very close. Watching her take her last breath is the most profound event in my life to date. Losing her was losing a part of me. I spent the remainder of the year struggling to learn who I was without my mom.
As I look back at this year, I realize that 2008 has been good. Really good. The year of stability. I still miss my mom every day, but I have found my footing again. Jason and I have finally settled down. For the first time in our marriage I feel like we have made a home. A real home. It is funny because when we were in college we were both so opposed to staying in Cleveland. Now, I don't want to leave. It feels like home, it is where I belong. I love my job and our friends. I like the fact that most the time when I am out running errands I see at least one person I know. We moved a lot in the first part of our marriage and I think we really needed the stability that we have found this year. As for 2009, no one knows for sure. Well, I do know that we have a baby on the way and I am pretty sure that the baby may dominate the year. I am going to go ahead and call it -- 2009 Year of the Baby!
I hope everyone has a wonderful year full of joy. We all have a clean slate and new start. In addition to my yearly themes, I also love New Year's resolutions. I know they are cheesy. I also know that a lot of people don't follow through on them, but I love them. Every year I create a few resolutions and try to see them through to completion. While, I have had a few failures, for the most part I am pretty successful. My primary resolution is to organize our personal paper work. I realized that it was time to do this when I found my 2007 tax returns stuffed in the drawer in my coffee table. I am an adult and adults have file cabinets. They keep their tax returns in neat well labeled files, not in coffee tables. It is time to cross the final hurdle between me and adulthood. It is time to purchase a file cabinet. In addition to filing, I have few other goals such as surviving life with a new born, organizing our closets and starting a book club. Do you have any new year’s resolutions? If, so I would like to hear them!
Happy 2009!
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I love the inherent irony in certain New Years Resolutions...for example, I started on mine two weeks ago: To eat healthier this year. I had already kicked smoking, so this seemed like the way to go. The result so far? I've been sick almost five days. Guess my body's been going into shock without all the fatty fast-food intake. Oh, the irony...
Here's a toast to your 2009 resolutions! May the road rise to meet you both!
I am striving first of all to get closer to God than I have ever been this year. To keep up with a devotion each day with Jesus. Next is to pay off all debts except for a house and car loan this year. To have better money management. To be closer to my husband and be a better wife. To lose weight by eating more healthy and exercise.
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