The Low Down

Jason and are going TO HAVE A BABY! Yes, after almost 5 years of marriage, we decided that it was time to expand our little family. Well, truth be told, I decided intially. I turned 27 last summer and my biological started ticking. We had a soild marriage, owned a home and had two dogs, so for me the next logical step was a baby. Jason wasn't quite sold on this concept. He kept telling me hit "snooze" on my internal clock.  Finally after many long talks about my incessant desire to procreate, I convinced Jason to give up birth control. My primary leverage was that my previous doctor had told me that she thought it might take us a while to conceive due to some "issues." It took us three weeks. Yep, that doctor was way off.

I was a little late so we decided to take a test. I remember clearly setting with Jason at dinner and telling him that I defiantly was not pregnant but we will take the test in the morning just in case. I got up a few moments before him, took the test, and headed in to the kitchen to make coffee (this was before the smell of it made me sick). When he got up I told him to test was is the bathroom if he wanted to take a look. Well ,he did and behold a little pink plus sign. We both just stood there shell shocked. Then the girl in me took over and I got all happy and giddy while Jason still looked liked he had been sucker punched in the face.  I decided to give him a minute to let things "sink in", so I quietly walked out of the bathroom.  A few minutes later, I found him lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling. When I asked him if he was okay, his only response was "this is huge!"

We found out 4 weeks ago and the last month has been nothing short of insanity. I have been nauseated, crazy hormonal and exhausted. On top of this my grandmother passed away last week. I so desperately wanted to go to Florida for her funeral. Unfortunately, baby barks didn't feel like boarding a plane. I got extremely sick in the airport and missed my flight. I spent the weekend at home thinking about my grandmother and my mother, who I lost in 2007.   I miss them both and wish that they were here to share in our joy.

Joy, would defiantly be the word I would use. All the sickness, tiredness and emotions seemed totally inconsequential on Friday when we finally got to catch a glimpse of our little baby. Seeing the tiny, one inch baby, squirming all over the ultrasound screen made everything seem so real. We ARE HAVING A BABY! Our love has created a tiny life. It is so exciting and overwhelming.   I am sure that we won't be perfect parents, but I do know that our tiny tot will be brought into a house with two loving parents and two loving puppies. Okay, the dogs have no idea what is going on but I am certain they will be wonderful companions to baby barks (otherwise, its off to puppy prison).

Here is our little bean, 9 weeks and 2 days along. The due date is June 26th, but we are pulling for the baby to be born on June 24th. The 24th is the day that Jason asked me to marry him and got this whole things started (the marriage that is, not the baby making.   :-)