Now, it is completely possible to finish reading the previous blog, written by my dear wife, and walk away thinking that I was completely opposed to the whole idea of having a kid. I was only patially opposed. Well, "opposed" is really a poor choice of words. The true sentiment could be more aptly described as having serious "apprehensions" about having a baby. Why? The obvious fears and concerns were there of course: Am I ready to be a father?, Would I make a good father?, Are we ready financially, mentally, emotionally, even...dare I say.. socially? (If having a child puts a strain on your social life and we are already reclusive, we may never get out of the house again!) I find it somewhat ironic that the main thing that was making me drag my feet about being a parent, was one of the things that Jaime listed as a sign that she was ready to be one. Our relationship. I know this sounds horribly selfish but the last 5 years have been great. Don't get me wrong, there have been some pretty crappy things that we have had to deal with during that time. However, it seemed like whatever poop we had to wade through, always seemed to bring us closer and our relationship stronger. I love our life here in TN. I love our little home and love sharing it with my best friend. We do everything together. I would just as soon go out (or stay home) with her than with any other friend I have ever had. Yeah, I know that a baby will not destroy or break that, but I am not sure I am ready to share. I realize that might be incredibly selfish, but I have really had to work on not seeing our newcomer as "intruding." It is OUR life, that the TWO of us have worked at and enjoyed together. Now, of course I know that our child will be a wonderful addition to our little family, and he/she will be welcomed. I also know, that as soon as I lay eyes on that baby, he/she will have my heart forever and will be the best daddy I can possibly be. BUT I also know, that things will never be the same. It will never be just US again (at least until we are much older). Anyways, there you go. I am warming up to the idea of a little youngster. I just hope he knows what an incredible mommy he/she has and what a "huge" sacrifice I am making by sharing her.